My journey in and out of the wild places of life, where I struggle with and meet God, and where I attempt to find my place in this beautiful, dangerous creation.
4/18/2016
A Wetland Walk in April
Of a hillside forested in birch;
But find myself in a marshy wetland,
Ground seldom dirt, mostly sand
And where the land changes
So does the scenery and vegetation:
Fewer willows and more evergreen,
Basswood, larch, birch to be seen
When the path goes from sand to soil.
The tiniest of purple flowers
Polka-dot the land in places.
Reeds and sedges fill the open spaces.
Canada geese take wing;
The redwing blackbirds sing.
I happen upon a pool with
Several fallen logs upon which
Upwards of two score turtles bask
Until I walk close by
Then they all dive
Into the safety of murky waters.
Spring peepers sing their chorus;
Bullfrogs croak along the shoreline.
Cranes circle overhead, trumpeting their cry.
Shot gun shell casings litter the ground;
Red, yellow, teal, even purple, abound.
I want for shade, as the day is hot,
But leaves are just budding, so shade is not
To be found upon the dusty, dry land,
And when I try to sit or even stand
For a short moment, ticks emerge
And crawl from my socks to exposed skin
Upon my legs seeking a place to dig in
And feast upon a meal of life-giving blood.
Dragonflies zoom around, also looking to feed
But not on me--I am not what they need.
But though it is early spring, insects are about.
Even the butterflies flutter
And a bumblebee buzzes.
This place did not have the hills I desired,
Yet still my walk has made me tired
And yet renewed and refreshed
And feeling wonderfully blessed
To be able to experience solitude
And yet I was not alone at all
But surrounded by life and the presence
Of the One who created it all.
3/05/2014
Ash Wednesday Worship Service
No, not darkness, but dimness
Which seems dark after a busy day.

Flickering votive candle lights within
Multi-colored glass,
Purple cloth adorning the walls
And draping over the cross,
The harsh reminder of
The crown of thorns,
Icons with glowing halos,
Crude, simple, poignant sketches
From the last week of Jesus' life,
Guitar strumming,
Violin bow hauntingly gliding,
Ancient words of the prophet read,
From the Psalms confession said...
Create a new and right heart.
Sorrow, tears.
Hope, love.
Longing.
Ashes imposed,
Forehead dirtied,
Trinity named,
Sign of the cross made.
Meditating.
Reflecting.
Silence.
Stillness.
Peace.
1/05/2014
Epiphany
Journeying many days and nights
Guided by a star in the sky--
A special star, a sign they
Discovered through their
Astronomical studies.
Wise men: magi from
Gentile lands bearing
Treasures fit for a king.
For a King He was,
Thought not as any expected.

But without even a room.
Laid for warmth amongst
The rough straw in the manger
Where the livestock fed.
Surrounded by shepherds
Rather than royal knaves.
A King like no other:
Coming to free the prisoner,
Bring justice to the oppressed,
Give sight to the blind,
And love to all who would
Have them as their Lord.
One who rules from a
Heavenly throne yet walks
Amongst the leper and whore.
What treasure can I give?
I have no gold or silver;
I lack precious incense
Or embalming oil.
And would I readily give
What I do have?
My money? My time?
My heart? My life?
These I shall try to give
To the One who alone
Is worthy of my worship;
To the one who came
To save the lost and forsaken--
People like me in need
Of a Savior, in need of
Love, in need of forgiveness.
What He has given me,
I shall return through worship.
Church was cancelled tonight because of the extreme cold in Minnesota (the Governor called off all school across the state tomorrow). Still, I wanted to be there. It's Epiphany, and I wanted to be at church for it, not at home. So I thought I'd draw and reflect upon the holy day at least.
We don't know how many magi there were. We number them three because of the gifts. The truth is there could have been more. They might not have even been all men for all we know. We don't know where they were from other than that they followed the star from the East (or the star was in the east--some translations don't make that very clear even.
Traditionally the three are given names: Caspar, Melchior, Balthasar. They are often depicted as being from Africa, Asia, and the Middle East (or Persia, India, and Arabia--do a wikipedia search if you're interested in finding out more about what the church has historically believed about the magi). It's unlikely that they were from differing continents; Matthew 2 makes it sound like they came from the same country. But if I'm going to depict the traditional three magi, I like the thought of making them from a variety of places.
They were likely the first Gentiles to come and worship the Jewish child (Jesus wasn't likely a baby nor in a stable--the text says they went to a home). This is significant. The Christ-child wasn't merely to be worshiped by His own people as many thought the Messiah should be, but by all people. Even those who maybe had no concept of the Hebrew God or the stories and laws of the Torah.
Despite all we don't know about these astronomers, we do know what they did. They came and worshiped Jesus. They brought Him gifts of significance. They knelt before Him.
These are things you and I can do. These are the actions that make us wise like them.
11/19/2013
Fingers on A Sunday Night
Hand as we sing together
The words of the ageless,
Ancient prayer that Christ
Taught His followers.
Bony, aged fingers struggle
At the hardened crust of the loaf,
Trying to break it enough
To rip off a piece of the bread.
Delicately, they place the morsel
In my outstretched hands,
Blessing me with
The body of Christ.

Short, soft fingers that have
Only seen a few years of life
Grasp the chalice and
Lift it to me, offering
The purple juice,
The blood of the Lamb.
Unseen fingers touch my back
At various heights as
Young and old behind me
Extend blessing as I touch the
Back of another in front of me,
Praying blessing and healing
Upon them and others
Within the gathered circle.
Multiple fingers wrap around
Me in embrace as their owners
Share prayers of peace;
Touching each other,
Connecting, blessing, loving.
8/19/2013
For My Nephew and Bride
8/14/2013
Sitting near the Shore
Where gravity has slowly pulled on the glass
So that it sags in some places,
Distorting the reflection of its gazer,
The woods surrounding the lake--
Birch trees, white and red pines--
And white and gray clouds overhead
Are reflected on the lake's surface.

I can ignore the sounds of
Traffic on the nearby county road
And the conversations taking place
By adults up the hill in the cabin,
But it is hard to disregard
The cawing crows perched in tall red pines
Across the bay or the
Occasional "plop" from a falling acorn
Or the rarer haunting cry of a loon
Or fish splashing in the shallows--
Probably a minnow trying to
Escape the jaws of a blue gill.
Written 9 August, 2013
at Lake Arbutus near Eagle River, Wisconsin
8/12/2013
Rainy Cabin Evening
And splat-splat-splat
from the eaves of the
screened-in porch
Where I read an old
hard covered Ian Fleming novel--
the pages crisp and musty
from age and storage.
The rain creates a fresh,
just-cleaned-the-earth smell
As well as stirring up
the scent of decaying wood
and dead leaves
and moss from the forest floor.
The lake is devoid of noise;
even the loons are silent.
Only the sound of gathered
rain drops falling from
the cabin roof
Or bouncing of tree leaves
is to be heard.
So I sit in peace
on the three-season porch
Leaning against the arm
of a white wicker loveseat
And reading about the tale
of a young motel worker
in 1960s upstate New York
Who will at some point
encounter a spy
named James Bond.
written 8 August, 2013
on Lake Arbutus near Eagle River, Wisconsin
7/30/2013
Family Reunion
Little has changed since
It was last occupied:
Crackled yellow paint in the kitchen,
Family portraits on the walls,

The front porch is where
Generations gather and sit
And eat on humid summer nights.
The back yard boasts
A burlap-sack rope swing
Hanging from the largest,
Oldest tree, as well as enough
Space to seat a hundred people
Around tables when they gather
For the annual family reunion.
From the children who grew up
In the house to their great-
(and sometimes great-great) grandchildren,
They gather around to eat and talk
With cups of pink lemonade
Or cans of Miller Lite
To quench their thirst.
The children (as well as many-a
Child-like adult) grab squirt guns
And water balloons in a yearly
Tradition of staying cool.

Passes out straws and bags
Of little white beans and
The pea-shooting begins.
As the day fades away
And left-overs are brought
Out for supper, chairs are moved
To the front yard where
Ultimate Frisbee and
Tug-of-war are played;
Sparklers are lit and waved,
While ice cream is consumed
From the Dairy Queen across the street.
Darkness gathers, as gathered family
Slowly disperses until next year.
7/12/2013
A Poem for Summer
As their legs pump
The pedals on their bicycles
Up a long, steady hill.
Sweat beads up under
Our helmets as we
Ride through neighborhoods
Of old two-story Victorians
And Ranch-styles with
A variety of flowers
In bloom as we head
To our friends' house.
Vegetables on the grill
Sizzling with olive oil;
A sweet smell rises
From searing meat.
Water droplets bead up
On the outside of glasses,
And a cool breeze
Brings some relief
From the sun's rays
Which seem so much hotter
Once you step
Of the tree's shade.

Beneath the canopy
On chairs made of wicker
And woven plastic strips,
Eating, laughing, talking,
Picking pieces from
Corn on the cob
From between their teeth.
In the glow of
A string of lights,
A plate of strawberries,
Bananas, and chocolate-coconut
Sauce drizzled over
Vanilla ice cream
Slowly disappears.
6/29/2013
Stoping Along a the Sakatah Hills Bike Trail

6/20/2013
A Concert at Lake Harriet
That we've been able
To head down to the lake
To take in a concert.
The band is enjoyable:
a guitarist/singer,
drummer, and bass player.
Their name I never
Really caught--something
With "Prophet" or "Profit"
In it. I think it is the former.
The music is described
As "American rock and
Roll with Soul."
You never know what
You might get, but
Overall it is quite enjoyable.
In the background
Sailboats skim by on
The lake while rollerbladers
And bicyclists pass
Around the perimeter.
A family plays bocce
Ball in the grass
While airplanes scream

The airport. They drown
Out the music momentarily.
People in the benches sit;
Those around us in the grass
Eat sandwiches and drink
White wine. Talking,
Laughing, reading the paper.
A few kids and adults
dance near the stage.
Men walk over with
ice cream cones for their
families or dates. Couples
share a bag of popcorn.
We have not seen some
Of the usual people we
Frequently saw at concerts
Last year. But a group of
Neighbors sitting next to
Us is quite friendly.
Bicyclists stop to catch
Some of the music.
Dog owners abound:
Large dogs on leashes,
Small dogs carried under
Arms. Our children return
From the playground and
Enjoy spending time sitting
With us on the blanket,
Listening to the music.
The temperatures reached
Into the mid-nineties today,
But a cool breeze aids
To an relaxing evening--
A wonderful way to
Spend a summer evening.
4/28/2013
Haiku Prayers
Tonight I went to a session where we wrote haiku prayers based upon Revelation 21:1-6 that will become part of a prayer flag. Here are some of them:
12/23/2012
Advent 4: Hoping
God did love the world so--
So deep I can't comprehend--
That He himself took on flesh
And humbly to earth did bend.
As a frail and needy babe,
He became like us, born of flesh.
God came down, born a man,
Humbly in a lowly crèche.
Within that newborn infant child
Are all love and joy we can find.
For in that crude manger bed
Was born the hope of all mankind.
Without hope the world is dark,
It seems like all is lost;
But all has been ransomed and redeemed,
For Christ's blood has paid the cost.
***
I like the idea of hope. I need the idea of hope.
Each day I see so much despair, hurting, brokenness, and struggle. I know this isn't how it is supposed to be. Each day, I have so many struggles, so many burdens I can't carry. I need the hope that I will be made whole someday.
Pastor Jan mentioned at church tonight that "hope is a function of struggle." Without struggle--without hardships--hope cannot exist. Hope would have no meaning. We've heard before how the struggles of life are good for us. They build things like character, perseverance, and hope. Of course, it matters how we proceed through our struggles. Sometimes we give up. Sometimes we give in. Sometimes we take the easy way out. Not to give us an excuse, but we are human. We don't always do the right thing. I don't always do the right thing.
But the right thing in difficult times is to persevere--to keep on doing the right thing. The right thing is to forge ahead knowing that life isn't meant to be ugly--that someday it will be redeemed, made new and perfect. The right thing is to cling to hope--not in a way that we give up, but in a way that we move ahead. Hope makes us vulnerable. It requires us to give up control. It necessitates that we place our trust in God.
This isn't always easy. But in return God gives us strength ("but those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength" (Isaiah 40:31)). This is why we wait. This is why we struggle through Advent. The newborn King brings us hope. He gives hope. He is hope. In this times of waiting, longing, and struggling, hope keeps us going. Until He returns and hope is fulfilled.
8/15/2012
Wild Peace
There is peace.
Any other noise, we have made ourselves.
I read that peace is not just the absence of conflict
But the absence of injustice as well.
I wonder if there is injustice here...
Certainly not everyone "leaves no trace"
As is evident by remnants we discover at our campsite.
But most people here respect the wilderness.
And the wilderness does what it is supposed to:
The eagle swoops and catches its prey;
The moss breaks down the decaying birch branches;
The loons swim, dive, and call to one another;
The chipmunk scampers, gathering hazelnuts.
And maybe that is why there is peace:
Because all creation does what God created it to do.
8/13/2012
Poems from The Boundary Waters
Muscles flex, paddle dips,
A miniscule eddy forms
As our red canoe propels forward.
As the paddle feathers back
Over the water's surface,
Droplets slide off the blade.
The boat, the water, and we
Become one as we journey
Across lake and land.
Night:
I hear little noise except
The haunting cry of a loon
And the waterfall across the lake.
The water is still.
The stars are emerging;
Chunks of space rock
Burn as they streak
Across the black sky
Making a spectacular night show.
7/28/2012
Camping in the Shadow of Carl Sandburg
I can almost see each individual leaf
On the trees towering over our tent.
The land is parched, but no rain has fallen
For several months so I leave the rainfly off.
As I lay on my sleeping bag--the air has not
Cooled enough to be in it yet--
I listen to the sounds around me.
The night is still, but it is not silent.
Man-made sounds like a passing freight train
Rumble in the distance, but overhead
A cacophony of the noises created by
Insects and frogs rolls over me.
I try to isolate just one sound,
But it is almost maddening to try.
A shooting star flashes by overhead.
I know it is not actually a star
But a burning chunk of space rock.
Yet "meteorite" is not as romantic to say.
I track a satellite's orbit across the sky,
And am stirred from near-slumber
From the shrill chatter of a raccoon pair
That comes to take advantage of
Any crumbs we dropped during supper last night.
I watch the pair scampering about,
Chasing each other as if the moon
Bids them to come and play.
Then I lay back in repose, ready for sleep
As the hunter Orion watches over me.
-July 27-28, outside Galesburg, Illinois, birthplace of said poet.
4/22/2012
Resurrection Appearance
The doors are locked.
The disciples are gathered.
Fear permeates the room.
The doors still locked
When Jesus suddenly appears
"Peace be with you."
He shows His hands
And His pierced side.
Fear dispensed. Now: joy!
"Peace be with you.
The Father sent me,
So I send you."
Jesus breathes on them,
His Spirit poured out,
Equipping them for work.
To forgive others, even
Those who crucified Him.
They are to forgive;
Not evangelize or convert,
But to forgive sinners
Like you, like me.
12/24/2011
Incarnation
The Creator became the "created."
He came, not in a way anyone
Would expect the Lord Most High
To come to earth.
There was no pomp and circumstance,
No fanfare, no fireworks, no parade.
He came amidst the smells and dirt
Of a barn, born as a baby--
Helpless, frail, needy.
Livestock greeted Him to earth.
Their feed trough was His bed.
The angels announced His birth
Not to kings or emperors or emissaries,
But to lowly sheep tenders.
These men with dirt under their fingernails
And manure under their boots
Were entrusted with spreading the news
Of the birth of God's own Son.
He came, unexpected and unannounced
In the midst of dirt and filth
To show us the way to Heaven--
Descending to serve, stooping to love.
He came as one of us,
Showing us how to live and to love;
Loving us fully--even as a babe
Wrapped in cloths and laid to sleep
In a feed trough in a stable.
Great is His love;
Great is our joy.
12/21/2011
Winter Solstice
before it is even time to sit down
to eat a supper meal together.
In the morning it will dig in its claws
and try to last as long as possible--
knowing that its time has come.
Our friends north of here
will see the sun even less;
there are places of perpetual night.
Too much darkness like this
brings on depression and moodiness.
It makes the body lethargic.
But we celebrate today
knowing that the darkness won't last;
that each day we see the sun
just a little bit longer.
We adjust to its presence again,
like getting used to a new friend.
The old church leaders placed Christmas
on the calendar near the solstice
not without reason.
During this Advent season
we wait for the Light to return
just as we wait for the days to lengthen.
There is much winter left
before the sun's rays warm
this cold and icy earth.
There is much darkness left
before the Son returns
to bring righteousness and justice.
So we wait.
In darkness.
But with hope of brighter days ahead.
4/17/2011
Triumphal Entries and Exits (A Poem for Palm Sunday)
